Hey, hey, If you would take a second, take the little sticks out of your head, clean out your ears, and maybe you would see that I'm a person who has feelings, and all I have to do is do what I wanna do and all I want to do is hold on to my bag and not listen to you! And the only way that I would ever let go of my bag would be if you came over here right now and tried to pry it from my dead, lifeless fingers, okay? If you can get it from my kung-fu grip then you can come and have it, okay? Otherwise, step off, bitch.
-Meet The Parents
Today was my least favorite day in a long time! Have you ever had one of those days when you just can't pinpoint whats wrong but you feel like crying at the drop of a hat? Well, that has been my day! First, I was caught a bit off guard by something, and now I am even more broke than I already was.... which is hard to even believe considering how much money I dont have right now! BUT, oh well, trying to find work still and launch this website business to change my luck sooner rather than later. I guess I have just been feeling a bit left out maybe. I feel like I keep trying to spend time with certain people, and they are either always busy or just have no desire to hang out with me. I know a lot of it is because I dont like bars much and a lot of people I know hang out there all the time, so they dont even bother inviting me cause I wouldnt go anyway... but its nice to at least know that the invite is there regardless. I dont know, maybe I am a bit sensitive, but I know I dont treat my friends that way so I dont appreciate it when they do that to me.... I am a lot more considerate of their feelings and make it a point to just 'check in' occassionally so they know I miss them. I am finally getting to the point where I am just going to start spending my time worrying about making myself happy! I apparently dont have any luck making some other people happy so why continue wasting my time right? I went from 250 facebook friends to about 160 in just 2 days.... I was delete happy and just went crazy. And then, I went one step further and deleted about 50 people from my cell phonebook! Haha I mean if you never call me, never respond to my texts or facebook comments, and I never see you- whats the point of being my "facebook friend". I am interested in real friends anyway- not virtual acquaintenances. If you dont care to ever spend time with me, I sure as hell dont want you knowing every bit of my business otherwise! Not to mention certain people feel the need to always tell my ex my life details everytime they run into his hateful ass. He lost the right to know about me and what goes on in my life 3 years ago almost! Move on already!
Sad to say, but I still feel sick sometimes like I did when I had cancer and the intestinal issues from the radiation. I still have nothing that I use to have before I got sick. I am not working yet, so I feel like a prisoner stuck at home all of the time. Dont get me wrong, I love my family, but how the hell should I feel about being 37 years young and never doing anything but staying home and relaxing. I should be out enjoying life with my friends and family, doing things most people my age do and being happy! I am generally really happy for the most part, but lately I feel like the walls are closing in on me! I swore to myself when I got healthy again and beat my illness I was going to enjoy my summer and do a bit of traveling. I thought I owed myself that much at least and after 3 years of being near death time and time again I wanted to experience what it was like to LIVE again. I wanted to celebrate life and the fact that I was given a second chance. Well I have been out of the hospital now since May 1st approximately and I have done nothing. I have no money to even go on a weekend trip- hell, I dont even have the money to go visit my dad in Louisiana and stay for a week. My best friend Jenn has already asked me to go to Costa Rica, Florida, Mexico, Mississippi, Tennessee and now New Orleans..... But instead Labor Day is going to come and go and my happy ass will be doing nothing as usual! Even some of my family is trying to plan a trip to Mexico and instead of me going, I will end up staying here and helping to watch the kids because I dont have the money or means right now to be able to go anywhere. Everything is just a vicious cycle for me right now- need a job and money to get this business launched, need to launch this business asap so I can start earning money, money for a trip, money to buy things I need. I feel stuck and like nothing I do is making any difference. I am running out of ideas and I dont want to lose faith and just give up on this business. I want to be successful at this, I want to have something I can be proud of. I dont want to become a bitter person because I have allowed myself to be miserable and dragged down by all of this! I try and do any odd job I can get my hands on, but even with that, I can barely keep my head above water for long! Sometimes I just want to scream. I pray I will win the lottery, but how can I win when I dont even play! Hell, I dont have the money to waste on bummer tickets to begin with! Unless you are psychic and can tell me where the winning tickets are... if not, I will save my money! Haha I need to stop this pity party- I am only going to drag myself down even more if I keep being mopey and Debbie Downer! What bothers me the most is I am not this person! Normally I can find the positive in ANY situation, and I laugh a lot and make jokes to get through tough times! Guess I let it pile up long enough and today was just my breaking point.... I am sure tomorrow will be a better day- at least I hope so. I cant handle days like this often- maybe 2 a year is my limit!!! Keep thinking positive Jennifer! At least I have my family, a few amazing friends, my dogs (yep, crazy dog lady here), my health and my sense of humor. Thats a lot more than some people have so I am thankful for that!
On to a more positive note, my niece Hayley is here tonight. She brought her art tablet with her, and a book on horses. I am so impressed with her. She has found a real appreciation and love for horses and anything that has to do with horses. She is an amazing artist- for her age especially! She draws and draws and draws and draws some more. I dont see how her little fingers dont cramp up! If she keeps it up and continues to have a passion for art and drawing I think she could really do well at it! I just love that girl!
Another Friday night at home, writing in this blog.... watching tv w the mute button, and sitting here with my IPod on and jammin to some music! George Strait is playing right now! I dont know if that constitutes as "jammin music', but he sure is a badass! I could sing to his music all night long! Since I am not a bar hound, this is actually ok with me. As much as I would like to see my friends and get out of the house, I am content here....
Time to walk my babies one last time before they are in for the night! Sully left me another treat this morning- lucky me! I figured it out though I think- he likes to eat grass lately, and on the days when I catch him eating a lot of it, he leaves me those unwanted gifts the next morning. Maybe grass is a bit like a laxative for a dog maybe? hmmmm, I need to google that and see!
Until next time, love you all! Dream sweet!
We have, in fact, two kinds of morality side by side: one which we preach but do not practice, and another which we practice but seldom preach.
~ Bertrand Russell
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
A Chilly Evening In Texas
I've sent in my application to the Real World. So I'm hoping to hear back from that. I'm putting A LOT of my eggs into that basket, the MTV basket. I'm also thinking about getting a gun, and dealing crack. Being a crack dealer. Not like a mean crack dealer, but like... like a nice one. Kinda friendly like, "hey, what's up guys? Want some crack?" I'm just waiting on those two things to flesh themselves out.
-Talledega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby
Ah, what a beautiful day here in this shitpot city Dallas! It is a chilly 95 degrees right now. And in all honesty, it feels cool to me. I guess after endless days of 105 degree temperatures, 95 degrees seems like a treat! Big shocker, my posts on facebook about a few animals desperately needing homes yielded ZERO responses in 24 hours. Big shocker. Some people just have no clue. All I asked was for people to please repost it to spread the word, and nothing! I need to get some new friends maybe! Except for Magdelena, she has a heart for animals like I do. Enough about that, if I dont stop now, I will get myself into a frenzied pissed off state of mind!
I worked more on my website today! Ugh, I swear I am so excited to get this site up and running, but I am seriously going to lose my mind in the process. Well, what little bit of mind I have left. I contacted a few more business about wholesale products and so far I am getting a lot of feedback. Keep your fingers crossed that things continue to progress- even if its slower than I would like. At east I am trying to get this going and do something for my future. That is a lot more than I can say about some people. I wont mention any names! ;)
BTWm Jennifer if you are reading this, get your ass back to Dallas- I need you here. It stinks that my best friend lives in Mississippi right now and I cant hang out with her more often. I need my homegirl home before these other Dallas idiots drive me to the padded room! I need to go post her boat on Craigslist before I forget again- oops, I meant to do that last night. Anyway, to my 3 followers (damn, I am pathetic), I will write (or bitch) more later. Time to go stuff my face with a nice juicy steak! Mmmmmm
Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you.
- Princess Diana
-Talledega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby
Ah, what a beautiful day here in this shitpot city Dallas! It is a chilly 95 degrees right now. And in all honesty, it feels cool to me. I guess after endless days of 105 degree temperatures, 95 degrees seems like a treat! Big shocker, my posts on facebook about a few animals desperately needing homes yielded ZERO responses in 24 hours. Big shocker. Some people just have no clue. All I asked was for people to please repost it to spread the word, and nothing! I need to get some new friends maybe! Except for Magdelena, she has a heart for animals like I do. Enough about that, if I dont stop now, I will get myself into a frenzied pissed off state of mind!
I worked more on my website today! Ugh, I swear I am so excited to get this site up and running, but I am seriously going to lose my mind in the process. Well, what little bit of mind I have left. I contacted a few more business about wholesale products and so far I am getting a lot of feedback. Keep your fingers crossed that things continue to progress- even if its slower than I would like. At east I am trying to get this going and do something for my future. That is a lot more than I can say about some people. I wont mention any names! ;)
BTWm Jennifer if you are reading this, get your ass back to Dallas- I need you here. It stinks that my best friend lives in Mississippi right now and I cant hang out with her more often. I need my homegirl home before these other Dallas idiots drive me to the padded room! I need to go post her boat on Craigslist before I forget again- oops, I meant to do that last night. Anyway, to my 3 followers (damn, I am pathetic), I will write (or bitch) more later. Time to go stuff my face with a nice juicy steak! Mmmmmm
Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you.
- Princess Diana
Monday, August 23, 2010
Some People......
A dog has no use for fancy cars, big homes, or designer clothes. A water log stick will do just fine. A dog doesn't care if your rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb. Give him your heart and he'll give you his. How many people can you say that about? How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special? How many people can make you feel extraordinary?-Marley And Me
Today was an interesting day. As usual I worked on my website, and still don't feel any closer to launching it than I did when I started this adventure. Frustrating to say the least! I also got on Facebook, as I usually do, and I must say I am disappointed in my so called friends. My friend Magdalena and I are HUGE animal lovers, and we always posting posts for dogs that are in desperate need of homes. You know, I can post a bullshit post about nothing at all, and I will get 20 smartass responses. When I post that means something or is done to try and make a difference in an animals life, most people go silent. I am aware that not everyone can adopt every dog I post that needs a home, but I even ask for their help in gathering donations for the shelters, and again, NOTHING! These people profess their love for animals and even have pets of their own, yet they do nothing and make NO EFFORT at all to try and help even in the smallest way. I mean who doesnt have cleaning supplies, old towels/blankets or $5 to donate for a good cause. What irks me and other animal lovers I know is these people spend all kinds of money drinking themselves into oblivian on a daily basis, but cant spare a hand or a dollar for something meaningful! It just really breaks my heart. I mean who do these animals have to help them and keep them safe and fed if people dont help them. They dont have a voice- they rely on us to make sure they are safe and cared for! I dont know, I guess I cant really be angry at these people, but I am finding it hard to not be disappointed in them. And its not just animals either. I see a few other people posting to get sponsors and donations for sick children, families in need and other causes as well, and the same thing happens. People just act as if they didnt even see the post at all! What has happened to this world. The less fortunate need wonderful people in times of illness and tragedy. One day, they will be faced with a tragedy or another cause that is dear in the heart, and will ask for help. Lets hope for their sake, their pleas dont fall on deaf ears. Enough ranting about that I guess. It is just that I am stunned at how little some people care unless it directly involves themselves. Sad sad sad.....
On a happier note, I got to hang out with my sister last night. We had a really good time and actually enjoyed a few beers together. She is so funny to hang out with. We had dinner, watched some of The Hangover, talked with the kids and "wrapped" her husbands car with toilet paper. Haha.... only after she woke up at 6am, she immediately ran outside and cleaned it all up before he saw it. I cant blame her, she didnt want to start his mood off on a bad note! I even think wrapping it was the best part anyway. We had fun laughing and acting like kids again! I miss my sister and the fun times we have! I swear if only I had brought the video camera over you all could witness the mayhem and see just how much fun we had!
I also received the best message today from my dad... he went to MD Anderson this weekend for more tests, and he is doing WONDERFUL. He was diagnosed with prostate cancer back in 2006 I think, and so far after his treatments, he is doing great! Miracles happen everyday, and I know this maybe better than most people. My dad is a living miracle, and so am I!!! Keep praying for us both to stay healthy and to keep moving forward.
I think I should get off of this computer (it seems like a new appendage that I have grown recently) and try to get some sleep- attempt to get some at least! I highly doubt I will fall asleep anytime soon, but wish me luck. And to all of my beautiful friends and family- God Bless you all and dont forget I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!
Here are some pics of my "babies" (remember, I have 5- I must be nuts right??)...... now if I could just help other animals to.. thats my goal anyway!
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
The Wheels Are Spinnin'
I apologize to you if I don't seem real eager to jump into a forced awkward intimate situation that people like to call dating. I don't like the feeling. You're sitting there, you're wondering do I have food on my face, am I eating, am I talking too much, are they talking enough, am I interested I'm not really interested, should I play like I'm interested but I'm not that interested but I think she might be interested but do I want to be interested but now she's not interested? So all of the sudden I'm getting, I'm starting to get interested... And when am I supposed to kiss her? Do I have to wait for the door cause then it's awkward, it's like well goodnight. Do you do like that ass-out hug? Where you like, you hug each other like this and your ass sticks out cause you're trying not to get too close or do you just go right in and kiss them on the lips or don't kiss them at all? It's very difficult trying to read the situation. And all the while you're just really wondering are we gonna get hopped up enough to make some bad decisions? Perhaps play a little game called "just the tip". Just for a second, just to see how it feels. Or, ouch, ouch you're on my hair. - Wedding Crashers
Ah, another Saturday night at home. Hey don't dare start laughing at my poor pathetic social life either. I know where you live- dont make me come over there. I choose to stay in and not go to the bars. What is the appeal anyway at the bars? Go see the SAME drunk people who tell the SAME boring stories and come home with $100 less in my bank account? I dont think so. I can get a 12 pack of my favorite beer (Miller Lite) or a bottle of wine and have the time of my life at home all while wearing pig tails, no makeup and pjs. Thats what I;m talking about. Plus I dont have to attempt the ole one eye bob and weave down the Tollway and pray that I make it home in one piece. What a sad day that would be for my family and friends to have to bury me because I was so irresponsible and drove drunk and crashed. I made it through Cancer, so do you really think I am going to risk my life again and drive drunk? Um nope!
So what did I do today? Lets see.... I ran a few errands with my sister, babysat my friends daughter Vivian, worked on my online new business details (I needed a drink when that was done- hey bartender, pour me a double), applied for some more jobs (I have to get out of here soon and get ALL of my life back, so come on JOB I need you badly-lol)cleaned house and all dog beds and linens.... ate plenty, got spit up on by my nephew Dean and messed around on facebook. I think I may need a facebook intervention soon. :) At least I use it for the purpose its meant for and not as a dating/hookup site like some people. I just like to keep up to date on my family that I dont get to see often and friends. Whats the harm in that right? Ad I got some really sweet new pics of my nephew I cantwait to get posted. How is it that I can be so in love with someone who has only been in my life 11 weeks. My sister has some beautiful babies. I really am so fortunate to have the family I have, even though I make jokes here and there about having to be where I am temporarily. BUT some people hit hard times for whatever reason, and they dont have family to fall back on in their time of desperate need. I do! And I love everyone of them0 their dysfunctions and all. It only makes them that much more unique and hilarious. And one day I am going to tape me and my sister Samantha together. We should be the new duo for the next set of Sonic commercials. We are funny as hell- trust me. My nephews and nieces would even vouch for that even though we are 'old' people. LMAO Your cheeks and sides will hurt after a night hanging w us.
I noticed today just looking around facebook that a lot of my friends are having babies, getting engaged and married and it got me thinking how much I miss those things. Its not that I NEED someone in my life on that level, but it would be nice to have someone to spend time with, cuddle with and just feel a connection with. I guess good things come to those who wait right? Dont feel sorry for me either- I have had dates and opportunities to go that route, but either the timing was off or the connection just wasnt there. Call me picky, but hell, we all should be picky! And to be honest- all I really want is someone who can make me laugh and smile, who respects me, who I can be myself with and who appreciates the real aspect of love and companionship and is emotionally available to welcome it when the time comes. Oh, almost forgot, someone who likes dogs, kids and believes family is everything! :) Too bad I cant run to WalMart and just pick up those ingredients and make my own man. Now if I could come up with a way to accomplish that- I would be rich. Shittin' in high cotton rich too! Like I have said before, all those guys are either married, gay or family members. I sure dont want to date a married man... not my style. A gay man... nope- I dont think my confidence could handle my man ever leaving me for his golf buddy! lol And family... a big HELL NO... yes, laugh all you want- I realize I am from Louisiana, so let the incest jokes fly. And I could never be a lesbian either... I dont want someone sharing all of my clothes and stretching out my shoe collection! Even though I have an appreciation for beautiful women, thats where it ends. I also have an appreciation for nice cars too but you wont catch me trying to screw a tail pipe! Its just an appreciation for beauty I guess in all aspects of life!
I know I know, you are dying to know what I am doing at this very moment. Well hold on and I will tell you but try not to get too excited ok? I am sitting in my bed- on top of the covers because I feel like its still 90 degrees in here, cant seem to cool down today. I have on a black tank and black shorts (i know- just wait, the visual gets better)...hair in a ponytail, with a glass of chocolate milk and a bowl of banana pudding next to my bed. HEY, relax- I do whatever I can to gain weight.... if I tried to not eat sweets and stuff I would shrivel up and fly away. Oh yea, almost forgot the sexiest part- the green mask on my face.... I know, calm down and take a deep breath. Its a beautiful visual. :) Well on that note, let me go wash this off and shower so I can cool down.... I may hop back on in a bit and say goodnight.
Oh great, Sully is starting to make music again. That boy needs a new food maybe- he is killin' me!
Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.” - Mahatma Ghandi
Ah, another Saturday night at home. Hey don't dare start laughing at my poor pathetic social life either. I know where you live- dont make me come over there. I choose to stay in and not go to the bars. What is the appeal anyway at the bars? Go see the SAME drunk people who tell the SAME boring stories and come home with $100 less in my bank account? I dont think so. I can get a 12 pack of my favorite beer (Miller Lite) or a bottle of wine and have the time of my life at home all while wearing pig tails, no makeup and pjs. Thats what I;m talking about. Plus I dont have to attempt the ole one eye bob and weave down the Tollway and pray that I make it home in one piece. What a sad day that would be for my family and friends to have to bury me because I was so irresponsible and drove drunk and crashed. I made it through Cancer, so do you really think I am going to risk my life again and drive drunk? Um nope!
So what did I do today? Lets see.... I ran a few errands with my sister, babysat my friends daughter Vivian, worked on my online new business details (I needed a drink when that was done- hey bartender, pour me a double), applied for some more jobs (I have to get out of here soon and get ALL of my life back, so come on JOB I need you badly-lol)cleaned house and all dog beds and linens.... ate plenty, got spit up on by my nephew Dean and messed around on facebook. I think I may need a facebook intervention soon. :) At least I use it for the purpose its meant for and not as a dating/hookup site like some people. I just like to keep up to date on my family that I dont get to see often and friends. Whats the harm in that right? Ad I got some really sweet new pics of my nephew I cantwait to get posted. How is it that I can be so in love with someone who has only been in my life 11 weeks. My sister has some beautiful babies. I really am so fortunate to have the family I have, even though I make jokes here and there about having to be where I am temporarily. BUT some people hit hard times for whatever reason, and they dont have family to fall back on in their time of desperate need. I do! And I love everyone of them0 their dysfunctions and all. It only makes them that much more unique and hilarious. And one day I am going to tape me and my sister Samantha together. We should be the new duo for the next set of Sonic commercials. We are funny as hell- trust me. My nephews and nieces would even vouch for that even though we are 'old' people. LMAO Your cheeks and sides will hurt after a night hanging w us.
I noticed today just looking around facebook that a lot of my friends are having babies, getting engaged and married and it got me thinking how much I miss those things. Its not that I NEED someone in my life on that level, but it would be nice to have someone to spend time with, cuddle with and just feel a connection with. I guess good things come to those who wait right? Dont feel sorry for me either- I have had dates and opportunities to go that route, but either the timing was off or the connection just wasnt there. Call me picky, but hell, we all should be picky! And to be honest- all I really want is someone who can make me laugh and smile, who respects me, who I can be myself with and who appreciates the real aspect of love and companionship and is emotionally available to welcome it when the time comes. Oh, almost forgot, someone who likes dogs, kids and believes family is everything! :) Too bad I cant run to WalMart and just pick up those ingredients and make my own man. Now if I could come up with a way to accomplish that- I would be rich. Shittin' in high cotton rich too! Like I have said before, all those guys are either married, gay or family members. I sure dont want to date a married man... not my style. A gay man... nope- I dont think my confidence could handle my man ever leaving me for his golf buddy! lol And family... a big HELL NO... yes, laugh all you want- I realize I am from Louisiana, so let the incest jokes fly. And I could never be a lesbian either... I dont want someone sharing all of my clothes and stretching out my shoe collection! Even though I have an appreciation for beautiful women, thats where it ends. I also have an appreciation for nice cars too but you wont catch me trying to screw a tail pipe! Its just an appreciation for beauty I guess in all aspects of life!
I know I know, you are dying to know what I am doing at this very moment. Well hold on and I will tell you but try not to get too excited ok? I am sitting in my bed- on top of the covers because I feel like its still 90 degrees in here, cant seem to cool down today. I have on a black tank and black shorts (i know- just wait, the visual gets better)...hair in a ponytail, with a glass of chocolate milk and a bowl of banana pudding next to my bed. HEY, relax- I do whatever I can to gain weight.... if I tried to not eat sweets and stuff I would shrivel up and fly away. Oh yea, almost forgot the sexiest part- the green mask on my face.... I know, calm down and take a deep breath. Its a beautiful visual. :) Well on that note, let me go wash this off and shower so I can cool down.... I may hop back on in a bit and say goodnight.
Oh great, Sully is starting to make music again. That boy needs a new food maybe- he is killin' me!
Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.” - Mahatma Ghandi
Thursday, August 19, 2010
One hell of a stinky day
Ladies and gentlemen, can I please have your attention. I’ve just been handed an urgent and horrifying news story. I need all of you to stop what you’re doing and listen. Cannonball!! -Anchorman
Ok, now that you are paying attention I will start my daily rant. Today was, well how do you say it, BORING! Another day of scouring the internet and job websites for work with no luck. And it is just so frustrating too. Out of 100 postings, maybe 15 are legitimate jobs with potential. The rest are scams!!! Maybe I should just start pimping out some of my friends and make a living that way. I mean some of them sleep around anyway, so why not make some money from their hard work. Or better yet, I could just plant some herbs in the garden, pick them, dry them and try to pass them off as marijuana and make some cash that way. I mean what harm would that cause- it would only make them taste better right? Or maybe I can just reply to the 100 emails I get a week from Africa, Nigeria and Somalia telling me that 1 million dollars is mine if I would just send them my name, number, social security information, and pay $100 for processing. I mean I know I am a badass, but I just didn’t realize how many people knew that and have chosen me to give their inheritances too. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Please, do people REALLY fall for that crap! I guess so, because if they didn’t, I don’t think they would still be sending those emails 5-10 years later. I am quickly running out of options here…. Someone, anyone…. Feel free to offer up some creative suggestions, as long as it is legal. Also, I woke up to a nice ‘treat’ from Sully, my youngest Pit-bull! I think he thinks his mommy likes to wake up to the rotten stench of his treats, which I can assure you I DON’T!!! Not the way I like to start my days off. Anyway, time to get busy and be productive… I will touch base later this evening. Happy day people!
Ok peeps, I’m back. I don’t know how long I will be able to sit here in this room and write, Sully seems to have some issues today and is making a lot of ‘music’ with his bottom. I may be fumigated out of here shortly. J But anyway, not a very entertaining day today. I was suppose to take my niece to visit a friend, but she never called us back so that was a wasted effort. I really wish my best friend Jenn would move back to this shitpot city so I can see her and her daughter more. BUT, some psycho baby daddy drama drove her right out of town. She is in Mississippi now, so you know the drama had to have been bad for her to run to Mississippi of all the places in the US to choose from. But I am keeping my fingers crossed she may come back soon- if not, that will suck. I will end up kidnapping her ass if I have to to get her back. I can’t handle and deal with some of these stupid Dallas people on my own. Its at least a 2 man job! If you have ever lived here, you would know what I mean by that. I have NEVER met more thousandaires living in one city! And that’s not the worst part either. The worst thing is that nowadays (damn I sound like my Granny) everyone seems to be sleeping with everyone…. If you date someone more than a month, you come to realize that they have more than likely dated one of your friends or someone close to a friend of yours. The dating pool in Dallas DEFINITELY needs a lot more chlorine. And I’m sorry, but I really don’t like going to bars anymore, I don’t drink coffee, and I don’t have kids, so where the hell does someone go to even meet quality people anymore. The last time I went to a bar I wanted to cry- for myself and for others. I am a people watcher, so as I looked around, I noticed there were sooooo many 30 and 40 year olds there with friends just drinking themselves into an oblivion and their radar seems to need some fine tuning, because EVERYONE that passed them of the opposite sex was a potential victim. I mean do they not care who they end up with as long as it is a warm body? It just seemed so sad and desperate. I really don’t want to date anyone my friends have ever dated. First of all, if they didn’t like him, I probably wont either, and secondly, it would be nasty. Ewww….
Before I forget, I hit a bird with my car today. L I have NEVER hit an animal with my car ever, so it really bothered me. Of course, if you know me- the crazy animal lover/activist, I immediately made a U-turn and went back to the scene of the crime, and happily he was no longer there. My sister said sometimes they just get ‘knocked out’ for a bit, then they will get back up and fly away. I sure hope that is what happened. I would hate to be known as a bird murderer. I’m sure he will be on the lookout for me next time he is flying so low in the area.
Done ranting for a bit. I will check back in a while if my busy schedule permits that is. Haha, that’s about the funniest thing I have heard all day!
Thought of the day: Never be afraid to try something new. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic
Ok, now that you are paying attention I will start my daily rant. Today was, well how do you say it, BORING! Another day of scouring the internet and job websites for work with no luck. And it is just so frustrating too. Out of 100 postings, maybe 15 are legitimate jobs with potential. The rest are scams!!! Maybe I should just start pimping out some of my friends and make a living that way. I mean some of them sleep around anyway, so why not make some money from their hard work. Or better yet, I could just plant some herbs in the garden, pick them, dry them and try to pass them off as marijuana and make some cash that way. I mean what harm would that cause- it would only make them taste better right? Or maybe I can just reply to the 100 emails I get a week from Africa, Nigeria and Somalia telling me that 1 million dollars is mine if I would just send them my name, number, social security information, and pay $100 for processing. I mean I know I am a badass, but I just didn’t realize how many people knew that and have chosen me to give their inheritances too. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Please, do people REALLY fall for that crap! I guess so, because if they didn’t, I don’t think they would still be sending those emails 5-10 years later. I am quickly running out of options here…. Someone, anyone…. Feel free to offer up some creative suggestions, as long as it is legal. Also, I woke up to a nice ‘treat’ from Sully, my youngest Pit-bull! I think he thinks his mommy likes to wake up to the rotten stench of his treats, which I can assure you I DON’T!!! Not the way I like to start my days off. Anyway, time to get busy and be productive… I will touch base later this evening. Happy day people!
Ok peeps, I’m back. I don’t know how long I will be able to sit here in this room and write, Sully seems to have some issues today and is making a lot of ‘music’ with his bottom. I may be fumigated out of here shortly. J But anyway, not a very entertaining day today. I was suppose to take my niece to visit a friend, but she never called us back so that was a wasted effort. I really wish my best friend Jenn would move back to this shitpot city so I can see her and her daughter more. BUT, some psycho baby daddy drama drove her right out of town. She is in Mississippi now, so you know the drama had to have been bad for her to run to Mississippi of all the places in the US to choose from. But I am keeping my fingers crossed she may come back soon- if not, that will suck. I will end up kidnapping her ass if I have to to get her back. I can’t handle and deal with some of these stupid Dallas people on my own. Its at least a 2 man job! If you have ever lived here, you would know what I mean by that. I have NEVER met more thousandaires living in one city! And that’s not the worst part either. The worst thing is that nowadays (damn I sound like my Granny) everyone seems to be sleeping with everyone…. If you date someone more than a month, you come to realize that they have more than likely dated one of your friends or someone close to a friend of yours. The dating pool in Dallas DEFINITELY needs a lot more chlorine. And I’m sorry, but I really don’t like going to bars anymore, I don’t drink coffee, and I don’t have kids, so where the hell does someone go to even meet quality people anymore. The last time I went to a bar I wanted to cry- for myself and for others. I am a people watcher, so as I looked around, I noticed there were sooooo many 30 and 40 year olds there with friends just drinking themselves into an oblivion and their radar seems to need some fine tuning, because EVERYONE that passed them of the opposite sex was a potential victim. I mean do they not care who they end up with as long as it is a warm body? It just seemed so sad and desperate. I really don’t want to date anyone my friends have ever dated. First of all, if they didn’t like him, I probably wont either, and secondly, it would be nasty. Ewww….
Before I forget, I hit a bird with my car today. L I have NEVER hit an animal with my car ever, so it really bothered me. Of course, if you know me- the crazy animal lover/activist, I immediately made a U-turn and went back to the scene of the crime, and happily he was no longer there. My sister said sometimes they just get ‘knocked out’ for a bit, then they will get back up and fly away. I sure hope that is what happened. I would hate to be known as a bird murderer. I’m sure he will be on the lookout for me next time he is flying so low in the area.
Done ranting for a bit. I will check back in a while if my busy schedule permits that is. Haha, that’s about the funniest thing I have heard all day!
Thought of the day: Never be afraid to try something new. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
What The Hell Have I Gotten Myself In To?
So first off, I want to go ahead and make it known that I have NEVER written a blog before. But after so many people telling me I should, well, here I am. So if I break the "Blog Rules"... I beg you, please forgive me. :)
Here we go...
My name is Jennifer. I am not in the witness protection program, but I personally don't think my last name is necessary or relevant to this blog. I know, bad start to a blog, but I promise you, I am in no way a bitch- I just like to keep people on their toes.
I am 37 years young and reside in Dallas, Texas. I have lost a lot the past 3 years of my life... an abusive ex (thank God that guy is history), a cervix (I miss you dear friend), 12 inches of my intestine (really- I cant even tell), the possibility of ever having a child of my own (unless my sister sells me one of her eggs- I'm still working on that-lol), my job, and my independence in a way. BUT, I have gained a lot as well in the last 3 years... a new insight and appreciation for life, health, strong family bonds, amazing friends, new nephew, long lost family, and my happy spirit. I am single (please, no name calling and teasing me for that), have 5 dogs (you have my permission to tease me for this), and currently live with my parents (again, tease away). Yep, I said it, I LIVE WITH MY PARENTS. Trust me, this is not the ideal situation by any means, especially at 37 years young, but my past circumstances have brought me back home, and to be honest, I am thankful I have my parents to fall back on during tough times. Hmmm, never thought of this before, but maybe that is part of why I am single! I can see a Match.com ad now.. 37 years young, 5 dogs, lives with mommy and daddy and oh yea, doesnt have a job. Man, I can already tell the men will be lining up for a date with me. Well, I live with my parents because in January of 2009 after about 10 months of being very sick and not knowing what was wrong, I was diagnosed with cancer- stage 2B. My entire family had to pack up my old house and store everything but my bedroom furniture- and 5 dogs of course. They had to move me home to take care of me while I was sick and going through my treatments. See what I meant by not ideal, but necessary? If it weren't for them, I don't know how I would have made it through those scary times. Well, needless to say I went through chemo and radiation and as of June 2009 I was finally cancer FREE!!! I was so happy and on my way to getting back to my normal self when in August 2009 I started having massive bouts of nausea, vomiting and every other issue related to tummy problems... I will leave that to the imagination. I rapidy got down to 80 pounds, and was in and out of the hospital for IV nutrition and other treatments to try and relieve my pain and issues. Apparently the radiation treatments I had to endure really damaged my intestines, so bad that I was eating, and what little bit I wasn't throwing up- well, my body was not getting ANY nutrition or vitamins from it. I was basically an involuntary anorexic and I was literally dying a slow painful death. In addition to an emergency appendectomy, attempted radical hysterectomy and other treatments and procedures, I had to have 2 seperate intestinal surgeries to remove the damaged intestine, and after the 2nd one.... I finally started to get better. Its been a long hard battle, but finally I can see light at the end of the intestine... I mean tunnel!
So after all of that, it brings me to where I am at now- AT MY PARENTS HOUSE. I am trying to find a job, but after 2 and a half years of not working, and so many people being out of work, I am not looking like the best candidate for open positions. So, I am working on my own business- an online boutique of sorts, and with every passing day of getting this business up and running, I am losing more and more brain cells. I'm not really sure how many I can spare before I end up like Andy Dick.... You would think after being online so much lately that the last thing I would want to do is start an internet business. Oh well, that seems to be the best idea I have had and a great outlet for my creative side. Plus, if I ever want to move out of this shitpot of a city I currently call home, I can just pack up my computer and haul ass out of here. Honestly, if I could kidnap my entire family and bring them with me, I would have left Dallas years ago- but, Im not in the mood for a felony charge on my record. I have already been through enough. But, if they did go- I would make sure I had at least a 15 mile "buffer zone" between us so I could finally have my complete independence back. Whatever happens, at least I am healthy and have my family. And dont let this post fool you- I am thankful for the things I have and the people in my life. In all reality, I am one hell of a lucky woman, and nothing can break my spirit and love for life!
So, thanks to you for reading and stopping by to have a couple of chuckles at my expense. Hope to see you again SOON! That is if I haven't lost my mind yet and have moved from my parents house to a small white padded room at Bellevue Mental Hospital! Wish me luck!
Peace out people!
Jennifer
Here we go...
My name is Jennifer. I am not in the witness protection program, but I personally don't think my last name is necessary or relevant to this blog. I know, bad start to a blog, but I promise you, I am in no way a bitch- I just like to keep people on their toes.
I am 37 years young and reside in Dallas, Texas. I have lost a lot the past 3 years of my life... an abusive ex (thank God that guy is history), a cervix (I miss you dear friend), 12 inches of my intestine (really- I cant even tell), the possibility of ever having a child of my own (unless my sister sells me one of her eggs- I'm still working on that-lol), my job, and my independence in a way. BUT, I have gained a lot as well in the last 3 years... a new insight and appreciation for life, health, strong family bonds, amazing friends, new nephew, long lost family, and my happy spirit. I am single (please, no name calling and teasing me for that), have 5 dogs (you have my permission to tease me for this), and currently live with my parents (again, tease away). Yep, I said it, I LIVE WITH MY PARENTS. Trust me, this is not the ideal situation by any means, especially at 37 years young, but my past circumstances have brought me back home, and to be honest, I am thankful I have my parents to fall back on during tough times. Hmmm, never thought of this before, but maybe that is part of why I am single! I can see a Match.com ad now.. 37 years young, 5 dogs, lives with mommy and daddy and oh yea, doesnt have a job. Man, I can already tell the men will be lining up for a date with me. Well, I live with my parents because in January of 2009 after about 10 months of being very sick and not knowing what was wrong, I was diagnosed with cancer- stage 2B. My entire family had to pack up my old house and store everything but my bedroom furniture- and 5 dogs of course. They had to move me home to take care of me while I was sick and going through my treatments. See what I meant by not ideal, but necessary? If it weren't for them, I don't know how I would have made it through those scary times. Well, needless to say I went through chemo and radiation and as of June 2009 I was finally cancer FREE!!! I was so happy and on my way to getting back to my normal self when in August 2009 I started having massive bouts of nausea, vomiting and every other issue related to tummy problems... I will leave that to the imagination. I rapidy got down to 80 pounds, and was in and out of the hospital for IV nutrition and other treatments to try and relieve my pain and issues. Apparently the radiation treatments I had to endure really damaged my intestines, so bad that I was eating, and what little bit I wasn't throwing up- well, my body was not getting ANY nutrition or vitamins from it. I was basically an involuntary anorexic and I was literally dying a slow painful death. In addition to an emergency appendectomy, attempted radical hysterectomy and other treatments and procedures, I had to have 2 seperate intestinal surgeries to remove the damaged intestine, and after the 2nd one.... I finally started to get better. Its been a long hard battle, but finally I can see light at the end of the intestine... I mean tunnel!
So after all of that, it brings me to where I am at now- AT MY PARENTS HOUSE. I am trying to find a job, but after 2 and a half years of not working, and so many people being out of work, I am not looking like the best candidate for open positions. So, I am working on my own business- an online boutique of sorts, and with every passing day of getting this business up and running, I am losing more and more brain cells. I'm not really sure how many I can spare before I end up like Andy Dick.... You would think after being online so much lately that the last thing I would want to do is start an internet business. Oh well, that seems to be the best idea I have had and a great outlet for my creative side. Plus, if I ever want to move out of this shitpot of a city I currently call home, I can just pack up my computer and haul ass out of here. Honestly, if I could kidnap my entire family and bring them with me, I would have left Dallas years ago- but, Im not in the mood for a felony charge on my record. I have already been through enough. But, if they did go- I would make sure I had at least a 15 mile "buffer zone" between us so I could finally have my complete independence back. Whatever happens, at least I am healthy and have my family. And dont let this post fool you- I am thankful for the things I have and the people in my life. In all reality, I am one hell of a lucky woman, and nothing can break my spirit and love for life!
So, thanks to you for reading and stopping by to have a couple of chuckles at my expense. Hope to see you again SOON! That is if I haven't lost my mind yet and have moved from my parents house to a small white padded room at Bellevue Mental Hospital! Wish me luck!
Peace out people!
Jennifer
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