What The Hell Have I Gotten Myself In To?

So first off, I want to go ahead and make it known that I have NEVER written a blog before.  But after so many people telling me I should, well, here I am.  So if I break the "Blog Rules"... I beg you, please forgive me.  :)

Here we go...

My name is Jennifer.  I am not in the witness protection program, but I personally don't think my last name is necessary or relevant to this blog.  I know, bad start to a blog, but I promise you, I am in no way a bitch- I just like to keep people on their toes.

 I am 37 years young and reside in Dallas, Texas.  I have lost a lot the past 3 years of my life... an abusive ex (thank God that guy is history), a cervix (I miss you dear friend), 12 inches of my intestine (really- I cant even tell), the possibility of ever having a child of my own (unless my sister sells me one of her eggs- I'm still working on that-lol), my job, and my independence in a way.  BUT, I have gained a lot as well in the last 3 years... a new insight and appreciation for life, health, strong family bonds, amazing friends, new nephew, long lost family, and my happy spirit.  I am single (please, no name calling and teasing me for that), have 5 dogs (you have my permission to tease me for this), and currently live with my parents (again, tease away).  Yep, I said it, I LIVE WITH MY PARENTS.  Trust me, this is not the ideal situation by any means, especially at 37 years young, but my past circumstances have brought me back home, and to be honest, I am thankful I have my parents to fall back on during tough times.  Hmmm, never thought of this before, but maybe that is part of why I am single!  I can see a Match.com ad now.. 37 years young, 5 dogs, lives with mommy and daddy and oh yea, doesnt have a job.  Man, I can already tell the men will be lining up for a date with me.  Well, I live with my parents because in January of 2009 after about 10 months of being very sick and not knowing what was wrong, I was diagnosed with cancer- stage 2B.  My entire family had to pack up my old house and store everything but my bedroom furniture- and 5 dogs of course. They had to move me home to take care of me while I was sick and going through my treatments.  See what I meant by not ideal, but necessary?  If it weren't for them, I don't know how I would have made it through those scary times.  Well, needless to say I went through chemo and radiation and as of June 2009 I was finally cancer FREE!!!   I was so happy and on my way to getting back to my normal self when in August 2009 I started having massive bouts of nausea, vomiting and every other issue related to tummy problems... I will leave that to the imagination.  I rapidy got down to 80 pounds, and was in and out of the hospital for IV nutrition and other treatments to try and relieve  my pain and issues.  Apparently the radiation treatments I had to endure really damaged my intestines, so bad that I was eating, and what little bit I wasn't throwing up- well, my body was not getting ANY nutrition or vitamins from it.  I was basically an involuntary anorexic and I was literally dying a slow painful death.  In addition to an emergency appendectomy, attempted radical hysterectomy and other treatments and procedures, I had to have 2 seperate intestinal surgeries to remove the damaged intestine, and after the 2nd one.... I finally started to get better.  Its been a long hard battle, but finally I can see light at the end of the intestine... I mean tunnel! 

So after all of that, it brings me to where I am at now- AT MY PARENTS HOUSE.  I am trying to find a job, but after 2 and a half years of not working, and so many people being out of work, I am not looking like the best candidate for open positions.  So, I am working on my own business- an online boutique of sorts, and with every passing day of getting this business up and running, I am losing more and more brain cells.  I'm not really sure how many I can spare before I end up like Andy Dick....  You would think after being online so much lately that the last thing I would want to do is start an internet business.  Oh well, that seems to be the best idea I have had and a great outlet for my creative side.  Plus, if I ever want to move out of this shitpot of a city I currently call home, I can just pack up my computer and haul ass out of here.  Honestly, if I could kidnap my entire family and bring them with me, I would have left Dallas years ago- but, Im not in the mood for a felony charge on my record.  I have already been through enough.  But, if they did go- I would make sure I had at least a 15 mile "buffer zone" between us so I could finally have my complete independence back.  Whatever happens, at least I am healthy and have my family.  And dont let this post fool you- I am thankful for the things I have and the people in my life.  In all reality, I am one hell of a lucky woman, and nothing can break my spirit and love for life!

So, thanks to you for reading and stopping by to have a couple of chuckles at my expense.  Hope to see you again SOON!  That is if I haven't lost my mind yet and have moved from my parents house to a small white padded room at Bellevue Mental Hospital!  Wish me luck!

Peace out people!

Jennifer